Pregnancy

This pregnancy started out with bleeding, then moved on to a lovely infection. I was dehydrated, nauseated and sicker than I though humanly possible. At 15 weeks I started having really bad stomach pain. I knew something was not right. I honestly felt like my whole body was poisoned. I made a visit to Urgent care on a Saturday night after not being able to take it any longer. My doctor was out of town. They found a dangerous bacteria that was threatening to put me into labor. I was put on bed rest and given medication. The side affects were nausea and drowsiness. I did not know the sickness could get worse. Oh but folks, it did. I could not get myself out of bed for the life of me. I spent day after day, week after week rolling from my bed to the bathroom floor. It was awful. AWFUL. AWFUL. I was so out of it. I NEVER answered my phone or the door. I would however respond to certain special people through texting. My house was a tornado, and basically things were upside down around here. I openly admit, I am a prideful person. I refuse help. (A huge fault of mine) I am a tough girl, I can handle it. My husband kept saying he was going to get me a nanny. I would refuse, I kept saying "tomorrow will be better." Needless to say, we hired a nanny, someone to clean my house weekly and milk delivered to my house every Wednesday. This has by far been the hardest 5 months. The part that is so frustrating is that it's just pregnancy. I don't have to look far to see how blessed I am. I can't imagine feeling sick or in pain each day from an illness or going through a divorce(especially with kids involved) or dealing with a death. There is a special place in heaven for those that have to suffer, I just know it. I have been humbled, I feel like I got a small glimpse into what some people deal with most of their lives. I am a changed person.

It is what it is and I have felt good for 4 days now. Lets keep our fingers crossed:)

AND now to the EXCITING part. Well Well my friends, do I ever have news for you.....We are having another GIRL!!!! Boy-Boy, Girl-Girl, couldn't ask for it any better way. My due date was April 5Th but as of yesterday it is now April 12Th. I am 19 weeks.

Anyone????

I need some serious in put here. We have booked a Disney Cruise, it is part of the kids Christmas gift. Bob and I have been very, very hesitant the whole time but his family will all be there and we hate to be the bums that don't make it. I will have a barley 3 month old and a 2 1/2 year old plus the boys which will be easy. Am I a fool? A new baby and a 2 year old. Will it be more work then its worth? I have heard 2 horror stories from moms that took a baby. Oh what to do? Also most every cruise line said 6 month minimum. Disney is 3 months. I just can't decide if it's really a smart move. HELP? ANYONE? Any suggestions?